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What I Kept

by Nicole R, 2026

I do not carry you in the way I used to.

Not in my voice, not in my choices,

not in the quiet moments where I once questioned my worth.

What I carry now is different.

I carry the strength it took to leave,

the courage it took to see the truth and not look away.

I carry the version of me who stayed too long

not with shame, but with understanding.

She was trying to survive

with what she knew then.

And I honor her for that.

But I am not her anymore.

I am someone

who listens to her instincts,

who trusts the feeling

in her chest that says

this is not right.

I am someone who chooses peace

over confusion, who chooses herself

without hesitation.

There is no anger here that owns me,

no past that defines me.

Only a quiet, steady knowing:

I am still here.

I am still whole.

And I am mine again.